Longing

I find myself in a place of longing.

I long for deep connection and reverent solitude.

For time to study and write.

For newness and travel.

For kindness, compassion and heartfelt understanding

of other times, cultures and people.

I long for God, the Truth, and not just what we've made it.

To know the Truth and to live it out loud.

I long for lightness of being.

For guilt and compulsion to be gone forever.

I long for smiles and laughter.

For connection with the earth, with meaning and rituals and seasons.

For order and simplicity.

For passion and freedom.

For interesting friends and inspiration.

To know that I am enough.

To know that I have way more than enough.

For connection to the land, and to my spirit,

and to those I love the most.

To my body and nature, to the energy that connects us all.

For community and peace.

These are ramblings that are tumbling out in my journal as I have had a family tragedy this week. Our hearts are broken, as our family has lost our very much beloved Chocolate Lab. Though she had a good, long life, her passing was unexpected, and our family is in deep mourning over losing this sweet soul. If you'll forgive me for being a bit self-indulgent, today I'll only post this amazing drawing of our sweet girl, sketched by a good friend of ours last year. I'll be taking a bit of time off from posting as I tend our family's hearts, and we are also taking a long overdue family camping trip next week.

If you have a pet that you adore, please give it an extra dose of love and hugs tonight. They truly are angels sent from heaven.

Tess

March 8, 1999- July 21, 2010

We love you.