Monday, February 14, 2011


Silence. It won't last long.
Learning new things.
Discovering I LOVE playing the mandolin.
Time alone in the city.
Coffee. Alone in the city.
Lunch. Alone in the city.
New boots.
Finding contentment in my little house, with my little life.
I have everything I need.
A husband who fills up my love tank everyday so much that I really don't care what he does for me for Valentine's Day.

This song. I'm learning how to play it, and I'm like, totally proud of myself. I don't sound half bad. If you haven't seen this movie, you must put it in your Netflix queue immediately. SO powerful. A parent's nightmare, but as the wanderer...I really, really, get it.

What's feeding your soul these days?

Friday, February 4, 2011

In the moment

rolling pins
floured hands.
cookie dough. (eaten, that is)
valentine hearts.
blankets. snuggled under.
her feet on mine, dancing.
whispered secrets in my ear, of plans for a birthday party still 4 months off.
I can't tell you, but I can tell you it involves meatballs and butterflies.
fireplace alight.
stories told
hearts kindled.

I am savoring this moment, for I know how soon it will pass.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Emergent Growth

Spring is already in the air here in the Northwest, with the first tentative buds bulging on trees, and the tiniest shoots of green popping up in the garden. It's a tease of course, as Spring is every year here, it starts early, but fruition is a long time coming. We joke that summer starts July 5th in the Northwest, and seriously, it ain't no joke.

There are seed catalogs beginning to pile up on my counter, so far un-browsed, but beckoning. I look out at my raggedy garden, soaked, muddy, and most definitely dormant. The greenhouse plastic in tatters, my chicken coop long abandoned. I've long dreamed of turning our little 2 acres in the woods into a little self-sustaining farmette, a spiritual and creative retreat, if only with a tiny yurt or wall tent on our back lot for a sanctuary/yoga/writing/art/reading/prayer-hut. I could totally, totally make this happen.

So, why don't I? I mean besides the fact that I have 4 children, ages 4, 7, 9 and 11, and that motherhood and homemaking utterly and completely kicks my ass at times? Yes, I'm busy, just like everyone else is, and really who wants to hear that excuse from anyone? Yet, I excuse myself from my own dreams because of busy-ness all the time.

Today I was flipping through the latest copy of MaryJanesFarm magazine (You MUST check her out if you don't know her already) for some inspiration, and of course, I found it. But this quote completely knocked me out:

"Too often we balk at the very things that could give us the life we want. Too often, the fear that we're incapable causes us to make excuses.

'No time'

'No money'

'No clue how to use a circular saw.' [insert your own favorite tool or art supply here]

The obstacles seem great, the provisions slim. We talk about "making do." But that doesn't mean settling-it means expecting more and better from yourself."-MaryJane Butters.

YES! Amen, Amen, Amen! This life I dream of is unimaginably, tantalizingly, amazingly, and gratefully within arms reach. I am so thankful to be able to stay home with my children, to have all my needs taken care of, and to even have a little left over for fun and dream building. To have a husband who tolerates and even encourages all my dreams, and gives me an understanding grin with his eye roll when I tell him my latest plans, and always tells me to go for it. There's nothing standing in my way, except myself, my own fears of failure, (and of success) and yes, I'm afraid a wee bit of laziness too. Making that life happen will take a lot of good old fashioned hard work.

I really just need to put pen to paper, seed to soil, chick to coop, arse to cushion, heart to prayer and be ready to ask for lots and lots of help along the way to learn the things I don't know how to do already. But I CAN do it.

"You have everything you need to begin."

This was my chosen mantra when I took the Mondo Beyondo class last year. (highly recommended, by the way). This statement has been rattling around in my brain again lately. Perhaps it's seeing the light lingering in the sky a few minutes longer each evening, the aroma of Spring surprising me as I step out into the cold, damp air, but I'm feeling ready to grow again. I've been in a season of rest for several months, recovering from what I realized was several years of debilitating stress and health issues, rearranging my thought patterns, letting go of guilt and crazy expectations, accepting more and more of myself as I really am. I am so grateful that I live in a peaceful country, in a wonderful small town, with an amazing husband, and 4 really great kids. My life is full. I can take it any which way I choose. I really do have EVERYTHING I need to begin. I bet you do too.

I know what I want to do with it all. But, it's easy to get pulled away, lulled by screens, watching other people have all the adventures, or get lost in the fun of learning about it all, and forgetting to actually DO something.

Create, Engage, Connect, Grow.

That I can do.

What are you doing these days? What new ideas are incubating for you right now?

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

New and Improved...

Hello again Found Art Fans, welcome to my new (actually old) blog. I'm laying the lovely Found Art Project to rest, and returning to my original "L'il Bit Crunchy" format. After a long season of resting, restoring, hibernating, and incubating, I'm ready to get personal again. I've combined my old L'il Bit Crunchy blog and The Found Art Project into this new space, with my name out there loud and proud in the new url. If you have me bookmarked, please note the change in the web address above.

I'll be sharing personal photos, essays, good links, and general ramblings about living a creative, spirit- filled, forward-thinking, socially-engaged, home-centered, soul-nurturing, earth-saving life. You know, in a totally non-militant, not having to do it all, fly by the seat of your pants kind of way. And yes, all with little ones afoot. It's all good.

I hope you'll stay with me, and I thank each of you for being part of The Found Art Project, whether you sent me a submission or as a regular reader! I think you'll find we can still be good friends.

Join me as I get a wee bit more personal!

Stay tuned...